sweet emotion

emotions suck, plain and simple.  they make and destroy my world all at once.

i've been bummed about gram's news but also very optimistic, which is it?  i want it all, as usual!  i'm optimistic that surgery and medical advances are on her side.  she's a strong person so as long as she hangs in there, it'll all just be a matter of time becfore she 100% again.

in the meantime, i'm getting increasingly paranoid about the recent track record of cancer around me, and thinking could be next (i tend to be a paranoid person so this is no surprise)...

so

in the meantime...

i'm drinking my pom juice (which i wish somebody had warned me about the energy it can induce- coffee hardly comparea)

eating blueberries

stressing less

wearing 3 layers of sunscreen

trying to exercise more by buying a soccer and basketball

listening to my recent soundtrack: hate it or love it by g-unit, selah by lauren hill, why can't i by liz phair, passing me by by pharcyde, when you say nothing at all by ronan keating, with you by jessica simpson, part time lover by stevie wonder, human nature by michael jackson, and float on by modest mouse.  enjoy.

and getting my face sandblasted (which turned out really nice and didn't hurt as much as i expected!)

if only all of this could make me a health guarantee!